Creation Of Self
People often say that this or that person has not yet found himself. But the self is not something one finds, it is something one creates. ~Thomas Szasz, “Personal Conduct,” The Second Sin, 1973
I’ve been through alot in the last year and a half. All of it is a learning experience for me. It’s beautiful and I love it. For awhile I felt completely disconnected to myself – my spirit. Today I can say I don’t feel pain, I don’t feel anger, I don’t feel embarassment – it’s all simply gone and was a lesson plan that I’ve completed and passed. I feel I deserve an A+ teacher!
When there is a balance with spririt and physical self – the result, for me, is a feeling of flying. Like I can run forever, laugh forever and fly as high as I wish. I feel wonderful, excited and so joyful.
Friends and family have been around to hear all of the drama… gossip is very damaging. I have found those friends I can trust with my innermost thoughts and dreams and fears. They are the ones that are without judgement and simply love me and support me. I’ve learned who I can trust and who stands in judgement.
I have finally started to connect with my spirit. It’s been so long… but it feels so good. I wish I could expain with words how I truly feel, but the language is too restricting.
The seizures where because of a huge unbalance – my body simply couldn’t take the pain, depression, stress and anger. It’s over now – and I can live my life and love those around me. The seizures have stopped – and I can finally move forward.
I finally can begin to learn about me – Monica – the one who’s always been there for me.
Let it Begin and Bring It!
2 Comments
Traci
Um – HOT DAMN! You go girl! I’m so glad that you found whatever it is you found… I’m so happy for you and your happiness! *hugs*
Susan
I am very happy to hear your seizures have stopped, what ever it is that you are doing, you keep doing it my friend. I am glad you found the peace and balance you so needed! Hugs